Conversations with God
Intimate moments of faith, reflection, and divine connection
30th April 2026 I’ve been praying for a specific mission in these last days of my life. It could be months more or years more. I do not know. Last week, I had my annual check-up with my cardiologist and found that I had polycythemia vera (an above average haemoglobin, total white cell count and platelet count). I repeated my full blood count at the hospital today, which confirmed the results. (A subsequent genetic test revealed that I had the JAK2 V617 mutation, which is present in 95% of cases of PV). I am now looking at lifelong venesection and chemotherapy to control my blood counts. Wow, the devil really wants to test me to the brink! I still have an ongoing trial and now, I also have to manage a chronic medical condition, which gives rise to an increased risk of stroke. I thank my Heavenly Father for preparing me for this day. As I have already concluded that nothing in this life is worth hanging on to, I am prepared to let go and be with God all the days of my life. But my story is not over yet. God has answered my prayer for a specific mission in these last days: Acts 1:8 “…you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.” Psalm 96:3 Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous works among all the peoples! Psalm 71:15-18 15 My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness And Your salvation all the day, For I do not know their limits. 16 I will go in the strength of the Lord GOD; I will make mention of Your righteousness, of Yours only. 17 O God, You have taught me from my youth; And to this day I declare Your wondrous works. 18 Now also when I am old and grayheaded, O God, do not forsake me, Until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to everyone who is to come.
June 9, 2026
13th April 2026, Monday I spent the morning doing some soul-searching on what my God-directed calling would be during these final days of the end times. As I prayed, I felt led to wanting to help people turn their sorrows and fears into joy and peace, based on my experiences as shared in this journal. I used AI to help me come up with a program with which I could use as a framework for instruction. Notebook LLM produced the Valley of Grace Protocol. (Refer to Slides in Protocol section). This approach was built on the spiritual principles and "keys" discovered throughout my faith journey, as recorded in my journal: Phase 1: The Foundation – The Posture of the Heart The first step is shifting the participant's focus from their earthly circumstances to their relationship with Christ. ● Identify "Broken Cisterns": Help individuals recognize what they are relying on for security—such as career, financial resources, or personal pride—which are often "rubbish" compared to knowing Christ. ● Choose Relationship over Religion: Emphasize that God desires a personal relationship rather than the mere following of religious customs and laws. ● Surrender the Outcome: Participants must learn to reach a "rock-bottom" state where the specific outcome of their trial is less important than their complete surrender to God's sovereign will. Phase 2: The Practice – Walking with Spiritual Authority Introduce the Seven Keys as the core daily framework for navigating the "valley." 1. Walk in Integrity: The door to success and blessings; a righteous person walks securely even when the path is long and painful. 2. Be Strong and Courageous: The door to victory; reminding them that the Lord fights their battles. 3. Be Humble: The door to peace; casting all cares upon Him because He cares for them. 4. Satisfy the Soul in the Lord: The door to eternal life; trusting that He guides them even in a "sun-scorched land." 5. Walk According to the Spirit: The door to freedom; standing in the truth that there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. 6. Be Quiet in His Love: The door to restoration; letting the Lord rejoice over them with singing during their moments of silence. 7. Walk in His Power: The door to God’s glory; acknowledging that He can do immeasurably more than we can ask or imagine. Phase 3: The Tools – Maintaining Spiritual Momentum Implement specific spiritual disciplines to keep the mind governed by the Spirit. ● The Discipline of Journaling: Encourage participants to keep a "faith journal" to bare their souls to God and record evidence of His hand at work, which builds faith during "slow grinds." ● "Praise Him Till Happy": Teach the practice of constant worship and thanksgiving as a way to invite supernatural joy even in the midst of suffering. ● Fasting for Discernment: Use periods of fasting to tune out "worldly noise" and position the heart to hear God's clear instructions. Phase 4: The Community – The "Psalm 23" Fellowship We are not meant to walk through the valley alone. ● Form a "Psalm 23 Prayer Group": Create small communities of people facing similar trials (legal, medical, or career) to "edify one another" and "bear each other's burdens." ● Iron Sharpening Iron: Use the power of community to sharpen one another's character and provide a "cloud of witnesses" that offers support when one is feeling vulnerable. Phase 5: The Transformation – Seeing Flowers in the Valley The final goal is a perspective shift where trials are seen as a "refining fire." ● Reframing Suffering: Teach that tribulation is a tool for sanctification, producing perseverance, character, and hope that does not disappoint. ● Forgiveness as Release: Facilitate the intentional forgiveness of "enemies" or those who have caused the trial, releasing them to God to remove bitterness. ● Finding a New Mission Field: Help participants look for opportunities to share their testimony or return to their "first calling" to serve others, proving that God can make "dead bones live" and bear fruit once again. By following this approach, those in distress can move from the "mire" to standing on a "rock," knowing that their earthly future may be unknown, but their eternal place is assured.
June 9, 2026
31st March 2026 How can I walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh? God’s Word reminded me today that freedom in Christ meant walking in the Spirit and the fruit of this is love, expressed as serving others. It is easy to be led astray, however, by the vagaries of the world I live in. As with the Corinthians, they had quickly forgotten the apostle Paul’s teachings and become proud, disunited, willing to turn a blind eye to and becoming practitioners of sexual immorality and narcissism. They preferred to follow, instead, ‘super prophets’ or false teachers who preached the prosperity gospel, making them despise the poor and disadvantaged.
June 9, 2026
19th March 2026, Thursday The verses in Isaiah chapter 30 were given to me by Gillian’s pastor, Pastor Bernard, when the latter came to our home to visit last week. The verses were both a warning and a reason to rejoice. God had wanted me to return and find rest in Him, but I had gone my own way, in my life and career. Having departed from God, I had been pursued and attacked. Indeed, the publicity around me was akin to being left as a pole on top of a mountain and as a banner on a hill. Yet God wants me to know that He will be gracious to me and have mercy on me; and I will be blessed when I wait for Him! He will send me teachers to guide me, even as He has given me the Holy Spirit to give me wisdom to understand His will.
June 9, 2026
24th February 2026 These verses came together for me today, in a way that I had not seen before. I was reminding myself to fix my eyes on Jesus as I went through these days of trial and toil. My heart told me to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, for the eternal hope that I had in Christ was weightier than the temporary afflictions in my life. This eternal hope might not be visible in the midst of the Prosecution’s accusations and their demand for ‘justice’, but my faith lay in the evidence of things unseen. Yes, there was evidence of my eternal hope in Christ and His promises! What evidence was there then? I had His Word, which is truth. I have had encounters with God throughout my life and how He had led me to where I currently was. God had sent me numerous brothers and sisters-in-Christ during these past years to encourage me. I had the evidence of God in action when He completely overturned the judge’s guilty verdict in my first trial and exonerated me. Today, therefore, as I stared into the unknown future, I was at peace, knowing that my immediate earthly future may be unknown, but my final eternal place in God’s kingdom was assured. And that was enough.
June 9, 2026
5th February 2026 I sensed the Holy Spirit in the courtroom today. God’s Word in Isaiah 54:16 reminded me of His sovereignty when we are under attack. Yes, God allows the creation of the weapons to be used against us, but He will also create the means to destroy these weapons. He will guard and protect His servants, and even more so, His children! We can therefore proclaim with confidence, Isaiah 54:17: No weapon formed against you shall prosper, And every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, And their righteousness is from Me,” Says the LORD.
June 9, 2026
25th January 2026 My trial approaches – less than 2 weeks away now. At times, the peace of my Lord Jesus Christ has enabled me to be still. Yet, there are moments when my heart is troubled, even though I hear the Lord telling me to trust Him. My lawyers have advised me of the difficulties ahead, but I also sense the Holy Spirit prompting me to live a victorious life and to leave the battle to the Lord. In the past week, I have been fasting and praying during my lunch period. I have been reading stories of Jesus healing the afflicted in the gospel: the Centurian’s servant; the paralytic who was lowered from the roof; the dying daughter of Jairus, a Pharisee; the Samaritan woman at the well; the woman with the bleeding disorder; etc. In all these encounters with Jesus, He looked at them with love and compassion, and He healed both their physical bodies and their broken spirit. Jesus told each of them, “Your sins are forgiven. Your faith has saved you.” That is what my Lord Jesus Christ has told me, too, as I seek His face with a broken spirit and a contrite heart.
June 9, 2026
6th January 2026 As I fasted and meditated on Isaiah 58:11 during my clinic lunch break today, I felt the Lord guiding me back to 1 Peter 5:10: …may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. I was being perfected through my trials, which test my faith and develop my patience, as God had promised me in James 1:2-4: …count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. And how does patience result in its ‘perfect work’, ie me being made perfect and complete? Because it is in patient waiting on the Lord that will increase my dependence on Him. He must increase and I must decrease. Seek the Lord and wait on Him! That was my rhema from Psalm 27 (verses 8 and 14) at the end of 2025: 8 When You said, “Seek My face,” My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.” 14 Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD! This was God’s perfect circle – the alpha and omega, beginning and the end. My fasting, prayer and joyful waiting on Him, especially during trials, pleased Him. Because He is pleased, He strengthens my bones and my heart. He establishes His kingdom within me and through me and I shall be like a watered garden, a spring of water whose waters never fail. With the love and power of Jesus Christ, I am able to be steadfast, standing firm and settled. As Peter wrote in 1 Peter 5:12(b): I have written to you briefly, exhorting and testifying that this is the true grace of God in which you stand. I may not yet know the outcome of the months ahead, but I know my Lord shall lead me in paths of righteousness and I shall dwell in His house forever.
June 7, 2026
3rd January 2026 I feel like David, running away from King Saul. On the one hand, I know God is watching over me and He will rescue me. Jesus Christ has delivered me and through Him, I shall do even greater things than what I dare to imagine. Yet, I am concurrently overcome by bouts of worry and anxiety as my trial date (2nd February 2026) draws near. My fears are like the devil, waiting to pounce and seeking to tear me apart from Christ. But Isaiah 9:6 declares: For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Jesus Christ, Himself, suffered for me when He bore my sins on the cross. He endured the cross because of the joy set before Him - that we may be reconciled with our Heavenly Father and be co-heirs with Christ of the kingdom of heaven. Why then do I worry? Am I anxious because I doubt God's grace?
June 7, 2026
16th December 2025 The Prosecution had appointed an expert witness from the US to testify against me. My lawyers asked if I was keen to likewise hire a firm from the US to act for me as my expert witness. When I enquired about the cost, the firm quoted me a fee north of USD750,000! My response was immediate – no. Perhaps it was the ludicrous fee, but in my heart, I knew that God was telling me to rely only on Him. I was not going to win this case based on financial resources or human strength. This was my spiritual battle, one that I could only win by calling upon the Holy Spirit to lead me. I did have spiritual forces at my disposal – the angels, who would fight for me, because Jesus commanded them to. What, then, was my role? To be still and to act only as His Spirit led.
June 7, 2026
10th December 2025 The Lord revealed to me today that my posture in worship when I am in despair was important to Him, as it reflected the position of my heart. Do I worship Him then in humble submission to His will or as one ‘going through the motions’ and only focused on the words said or sung, i.e. using my mind? As I praise Him and declare my love for Him, am I doing so as one who truly loves Him, believes in Him and is willing to obey Him, even when it may not ‘make sense’? These are postures of my heart, which I must maintain when things are falling apart around me and my trials continue without any sign of abating. If I were to worship Him only with my mind, then my mind will start to question when my prayers are not answered, which will then lead to me taking matters into my own hands. When I meet God face to face and heart to heart, He tells me He loves me and He rejoices over me with singing. So, despair no longer! Do not be anxious or flustered. Instead, praise the Lord, my Help and my God! Amen, amen, amen.
June 7, 2026
24th September 2025 Yes, the life that I had spent chasing career dreams, 5 year plans and the ideal life, balancing work, sports and family, ultimately resulted in no sustainable joy. They were all a meaningless grasping for the wind when God was not the centre of my joy. How could I have forgotten the benefits of my God, who has loved me and provided for me even before I was knitted in my mother’s womb? As I look ahead to my impending trial, why does my blood pressure rise in fear and dread, when my God had already shown His sovereignty and grace by delivering me from the IPP case; provided for me and my family through my physician jobs; and surrounded me with angels, family and friends, who encouraged me when I was in despair? Have I not been kept in good spirits and physical health? Psalm 114 1 When Israel went out of Egypt, The house of Jacob from a people of strange language, 2 Judah became His sanctuary, And Israel His dominion. 3 The sea saw it and fled; Jordan turned back. 4 The mountains skipped like rams, The little hills like lambs. 5 What ails you, O sea, that you fled? O Jordan, that you turned back? 6 O mountains, that you skipped like rams? O little hills, like lambs? 7 Tremble, O earth, at the presence of the Lord, At the presence of the God of Jacob, 8 Who turned the rock into a pool of water, The flint into a fountain of waters. This, too, is my Psalm. His Spirit dwells within me and His Spirit leads me. He may lead me into the wilderness to be tested, but He is also there with me. He has never left me to fend for myself. This is the truth. God is constantly reminding me that I am His. I have been consecrated to Him. All that I have and all that I am are His.
June 7, 2026
13th September 2025 In Christ, I am a new creation. I am who He says I am. He says I am His. I am loved. I am forgiven. I am righteous because He is my righteousness. Regardless of what is to come, I know there is nothing to fear, because He has made the road for me to walk on and rivers to quench my thirst. He has given me purpose and direction – to share His gospel and encourage others. This came to pass tonight when my wife and I welcomed ST, his wife, YV and CL, their daughter, to our home for dinner. The purpose? To share the gospel of God’s love for them. It all started when ST messaged me on 26th August: "Hello JH. My apologies for such a sudden message but I thought of you when I was thinking about spirituality. I hope you and family have been well. For many months, I have been personally inspired by your journey and deep devotion for our Lord. My wife and I have had our share of predicaments and have been thinking seriously about returning to Christ. For me, as Catholic, I know little but want to be more acquainted with the Word. For her, she's Buddhist and it will be a road to discovery and enlightenment in a more Christian perspective. Now with our daughter, we want to start her off in the right footing as well in terms of spiritual grounding. Thank you v much for any guidance you can offer. I can never forget the kind gesture of a prayer you prayed over me when we had coffee a couple of years back, hence, it was only fitting for me to reach out to you in the spiritual dept. Thank you🙏🙏🙏" The message led to me inviting them over for dinner and God did the rest. Our meeting was by His divine appointment. Over dinner, LW and I shared how our lives had been touched by Jesus. LW declared that in seeking God, YV will be found by Him. Jeremiah 29:13 “And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.” Hallelujah! We are witnesses of a new creation! This family has been called by God and they will no longer be the same, even if they don’t know it yet.
June 6, 2026
14th June 2025, Saturday God has vindicated me in the IPP legal case, but the battle continues. Even so, I am at peace, knowing that the Lord shelters me and restores my strength. I only move when I am called to move. In the past 1.5 weeks following the appeal judgment, I had made a single post on the matter – on my LinkedIn page. Besides posing some questions on corporate governance, I also attributed the experience to God’s design for my life. It was, I felt, a chance to publicly acknowledge God’s divine purpose in my life and how He had helped me through the crisis. As I write this, I find myself asking, what next? I still have to contend with the charges of alleged share market manipulation. Perhaps I should be fretting, since my next PTC will be in 3 weeks’ time. Yet, I am not. I am at peace as I abide in Christ and He in me.
June 6, 2026
4th June 2025 I received a message from my lawyer, that the verdict for my IPP suit will be released tomorrow morning. It has been 3.5 months since the appeal hearing, so I am happy that the end is near for this issue. I informed LW and the children of this and my heart was warmed by their support. LW: His will shall be done for His glory so we give thanks and praise now JYM: He has already decided but will pray for you!! 🙏 Postscript 5th June 2025 Nanthini (my lawyer): We did it We did it!!!!
June 3, 2026
1st June 2025 Am I greatly beloved by God? Yes, I am! I know this because the Holy Spirit has told me so. God’s love flows through me and keeps me going even when things look bleak and hopeless. I cling on to this truth – that God loves me and will pursue me to the ends of the earth – and I want to share His love with my parents and my patients. They have yet to come to know of His love for them. Yes, His Spirit in us testifies of the Father’s love for us and enables the eyes of our heart to see our Lord Jesus as the Saviour of the world.
June 3, 2026
30th April 2025 I have not journaled frequently in recent weeks. I have been tired from working long hours at the clinic and I was also down with food poisoning over the weekend. These have impacted my energy levels and health. Yet I know God promises rest! So, today, having just gone for my routine annual blood test, I am seeking rest in the Lord as I meditate on Colossians 1:9-12. A) Do not stop praying (1 Thessalonians 5:17, Colossians 4:2); B) Ask for wisdom and spiritual understanding to know the Lord’s will (Proverbs 2:6, James 1:5); C) Walk worthy of the Lord (1 Thessalonians 2:12, Ephesians 4:1); D) Please Him fully (1 John 3:22, 2 Corinthians 5:9); E) Be fruitful in every good work (Matthew 7:16-20, Matthew 21:19); F) Seek to know God more and more (Jeremiah 29:13, Hosea 6:3); G) The Holy Spirit will strengthen me with His glorious power (Ephesians 3:16, Acts 1:8); H) Be patient and persevere in my trials with joy (James 1:2-4, Romans 12:12); I) Thank my Heavenly Father always (Ephesians 5:20, 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18); J) He has called and approved me (2 Timothy 1:9, Romans 8:30); K) I am a co-heir with Christ (Romans 8:16-17, Ephesians 1:11)!
June 3, 2026
13th April 2025, Sunday I should be stressed, since I had received the Prosecution’s statement of facts last Friday, laying out its case against me. But I am not. First, I have come to accept that God is in control and has already written my story. All I need to do is to live according to His Word and have a heart for His glory in all circumstances. Second, I know that God loves me and will intervene, as He has promised that He will not allow me to be tempted beyond what I can bear, but will always provide a way out. What else can I do, but glory in tribulation, since it will develop my perseverance, and with perseverance, my character, which will finally produce hope that does not disappoint, for I have the love of Christ poured out in me!
June 3, 2026
26th March 2025 I am led by the Holy Spirit today to change my focus from myself and my situation to my family. I thank God for all that He has done for my family – LW and our daughters, JYX, JYM and JYL. I am grateful that they have the grace and favour of the Lord upon them and they have been shielded from the noise and attention created by the news in the past five years. LW has continued in her ministry as a prayer warrior for mothers and daughters in need. JYX has learnt to trust in the Lord for her medical studies and is now about to sit for her final exams in April. JYM has been blessed with an opportunity to expand her work experience in London and I know the Lord will use her to touch her friends and colleagues at work. Finally, JYL, already blessed with an overseas scholarship, has been surrounded with great friends who cook for her and with whom she can study. She is the only Christian amongst her friends and I know that has not happened by accident. God will use her mightily to share her faith with them in the years to come.
June 3, 2026
12th March 2025 Being serious (of sound mind) and watchful (sober in spirit) means being able to discern the will and plans of God in the midst of earthly chaos. This requires us to take our eyes off our circumstances – our successes, our failures, our trials, our very lives – and fixing our eyes on Jesus. Jesus prepared Himself for the Cross and His ministry evolved from preaching to thousands into one where He focused on mentoring His disciples (the apostles) and preparing them to preach the gospel and to disciple others. I, too, must evolve from a life pursuing earthly success, defined as career and earthly treasures, to a life pursuing God and His holiness. The process of sanctification is ongoing in me. By God’s grace and by the faith He has gifted me, I shall complete the race and be made complete in Christ, lacking nothing. During this time, I must prepare my family and loved ones for the end times. Each of us has received a spiritual gift, with which we can use to minister to others. One of my spiritual gifts is that of faith. According to www.whataremyspiritualgifts.org/spiritual-gifts/ , the spiritual gift of faith is defined as ‘seeing God's plan and following it with a passion and commitment that inspires others to do the same’. The website states that whilst faith is a gift from God (Ephesians 2:8), the spiritual gift of faith is a separate gifting meant to inspire others to have faith as well (1 Corinthians 12:9). Indeed, all our spiritual gifts have the divine purpose of serving others with fervent love, and in doing so, glorify Christ and draw people to Him.
June 3, 2026
21st February 2025 Today was the Appeal Hearing (by Zoom) for my IPP case. I went to my lawyer's office for the hearing with my Psalm 91 card, given to me by CH some weeks ago. I was given a cup of black coffee and the Chinese character for righteousness “義” was written on the cup. That’s a lamb above me, symbolic of Christ above me and above all! And these were some of the words of encouragement I received today: 6.11am Janelle: Praying for the appeal results! 🙏 6.35am Alvin: Dear Lord, as Jin Hian prepares to attend the appeal session today with the lawyers and judge over Zoom, we pray that Your presence and Holy Spirit will bring comfort and strength. We pray that You will protect and watch over Jin Hian and anoint the lips and thoughts of his lawyers so that a favorable resolution may be achieved for Jin Hian. In Jesus' Name we pray, Amen! 🙏 8.29am Fong: May the Lord of grace cover Jin Hian with His faith and peace throughout the proceeding today! 8.32am Wee Meng: Our Father in Heaven, we join Jin Hian, Alvin, Fong and the brothers in prayer. We ask for your grace and favour to guide Jin Hian, his lawyers and the judges in today’s proceedings. May your Spirit guide the submissions and the final appeal. Send your angels to protect Jin Hian and cover him with the blood of Jesus. Strengthen Jin Hian and give him courage and wisdom as he faces today’s appeal and the days ahead. We ask for your name to be magnified - we commit this to you, our Almighty God who loves us and watch over us 🙏🏼 9.53am James: All of God’s protection and love for your appeal hearing today. Praying for you that it will work out good for you. We shall wait upon the Lord. He is our fortress and refuge.
June 1, 2026
9th February 2025 God has placed this instruction in my heart today. I am frustrated and tired. I know He will rescue me and yet, I find myself being resentful towards those whom I think are responsible for my plight. The Holy Spirit has been searching my heart and He knows my anxious thoughts. He is certainly revealing the wicked thoughts in me and He is saying, unequivocally, “Pursue peace with all people. Be holy!” I must learn to forgive as Jesus did, against those who persecuted Him. I am one of those, who because of my sinful nature, caused Jesus to die for me, that I may live. Being made His disciple, I am now called to be equally forgiving and patient. (I received similar prompting from the Spirit on 2nd and 9th August 2024). The Holy Spirit is reminding me that the Father’s discipline leads to life. It is for my profit and is part of my sanctification (being made holy). It gives peace and I am being trained for His service. Yes, when I am trained, willing and ready to trust and obey Him, He will establish the work of my hands.
June 1, 2026
12th January 2025 My Lord Jesus has asked me to speak up. Doing so shows that I believe in His promises. I no longer fear the future because it is glorious. My eyes are fixed on the heavenly kingdom, a hope that is unseen for now, but will be clearly seen in time to come.
May 31, 2026
15th December 2024 I had been meditating on these verses for several days. 2 Cor 6:4 is an important reminder that I am a minister of God. I am part of a holy nation, a royal priesthood, called to be a witness for Christ. I am a minister even in distress and when faced with tribulations. As a minister, I must be patient, kind and loving – this is only possible when I lean on the Word of Truth and the Holy Spirit, who enables me to do powerfully more than I can imagine. I remain a minister regardless of what people say about me, even when they call me names (‘mastermind’) and seek to damage my reputation. In my sorrow, I rejoice. I have lost almost all my savings in the past 4 years, yet I am richer for the experience of knowing God more intimately. I now appreciate deeply what Christ went through and understand how much He loves me, that He would die for me! God’s love for me is even greater, for He was willing to give His only Son to die for me. Over lunch today, my family chatted about how Joe Biden, President of USA, had pardoned his own son so that the latter would not be punished for his deeds. Yet, our Heavenly Father did no such thing, allowing His Son to be punished for deeds He did not commit!
May 27, 2026
2nd December 2024 It has taken me years, but the Holy Spirit has finally revealed this rhema to me. My hope is the foundation for my faith. And the fulfilment of my hope will surely come to pass, because it is rooted in the promises of God, who is faithful. If my foundation is firm, then my faith must be followed by action, because faith without action is dead. In practical terms, I shall proceed to book my flight to Glasgow to attend JYX's graduation in July 2025, without fearing the trials that lay ahead of me. After all, has not God promised me the desires of my heart? God had already fulfilled part of His promise when I was able to attend JYM's graduation in July this year. I had earlier expressed my fear of missing Joelle’s graduation in January 2024, but this fear turned out to be unfounded. Why should I fear missing JYX's graduation now? Will I not be repeating the same mistake of not living in faith? Wow! I must press on.
May 27, 2026
17th October 2024, Thursday God loves us and it is this truth that helps me persevere through my trials. I also know that He is sovereign and in all things, He works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. Rev 3:18-19 is a reminder that our Lord rebukes and chastens those whom He loves. When we are chastened, we are counselled to cherish the fire that refines us and be clothed with His righteousness. As our Lord Jesus opens our eyes and reveals Himself to us through our trials, He will also give us the divine power to overcome all things, that we may sit with Him on His throne! Why am I being chastened and rebuked? Because I have been lukewarm towards Jesus, foolishly thinking that I have need of nothing. How do I ‘buy’ the gold refined in the fire, the garments of righteousness and the eye salve that allows me to see what the Lord is doing in my life? It is with my love for Christ, my trust in and obedience to Him that will be used to purchase these riches - the thirst-quenching waters, the wine and milk that are offered without money and without price (Isaiah 55:1)!
May 26, 2026
6th October 2024 I have had to keep going to the Spirit in the past few weeks, seeking to understand what was happening in my life, even to the point of wanting to know the outcome. During our 27th wedding anniversary dinner on 4th October, LW had asked me why knowing the outcome was important. She said, “You have not reached rock-bottom, if the outcome is important to you, (as opposed to complete surrender to God and trusting Him).” I replied that I wanted to know how to prepare myself for the future, so as to serve God according to His plan. In a way, that requires knowing God’s plan for us. But I guess there is a subtle difference between wanting to know every step ahead of time, thinking that such knowledge will give us peace; and knowing the sovereign will of God, who loves us and is preparing us to serve Him when we meet Him face-to-face. The former is undergirded by a doubt in God’s compassionate love for us and ability to provide a way out (often at the last minute), so that we will not succumb to the temptations of this world. The latter focuses on our eternal service to God when we are co-heirs with Christ of the kingdoms to come. When we meet Him face-to-face, our Lord will tell us everything we want to know! For now, our faith and hope are rooted in His grace, which is His immeasurable love for us.
May 26, 2026
25th August 2024 I had been given a prophecy 5 days earlier by Hannes, to walk in the spiritual authority of God. He told me that I had been given seven keys to enable me to walk in God's authority. I prayed for God to reveal to me, through His Word, what these seven keys were. And He showed me: 1. Walk in integrity – key to blessings for my family. Proverbs 20:7 “The righteous man walks in his integrity; His children are blessed after him.” 2. Be strong and courageous – key to victory. 2 Chronicles 32:7-8 “Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid nor dismayed…for…with us is the LORD our God, to help us and to fight our battles.” 3. Be humble, casting my care upon Him – key to peace. 1 Peter 5:6-7 “…humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” 4. Satisfy my soul with the Lord – key to an abundant life, which gives life! Isaiah 58:11 “The LORD will guide you continually, And satisfy your soul in drought, And strengthen your bones; You shall be like a watered garden, And like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.” 5. Walk according to the Spirit – key to freedom in Christ. Romans 8:1 “There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.” 6. Be quiet in His love - key to restoration with God. Zephaniah 3:17 “The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” 7. Walk in the power that works in us – key to God’s glory Eph 3:20-21 “Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”
May 24, 2026
9th August 2024 Lord, I want to leave this valley of darkness and walk on the mountaintops again. I want to feel Your glory as it shines on me, giving breath to every living thing. I know You have always been by my side in the valley and I can feel Your warmth, but it has been a long walk and I really yearn for a change in environment! Even as I ask this of the Lord, I can hear His voice. “I am leading You out now, even though My timing is not made known. Be patient and ready to serve Me with all your heart, mind and soul.” I do not know what the future holds, but I know my Lord Jesus is in it. I can only be more and more like Him in order to serve like Him. Patience, love, kindness, peace and joy come to mind. Praise Him daily. Praise Him always. Praise Him in all things. I went for a worship and prayer meeting (just before the National Day Parade) at Lily’s home. She had invited two missionaries, from Global Awakening, to her home to pray for me. I had never met Lily or the two missionaries, Alan and Donna, who were from the UK. I was invited through Lily’s sister, Caroline, who ran the hair salon at SICC. Caroline was also at the prayer meeting with her husband, David. They (Lily and Donna) prayed in tongues and also in English, so that I could understand. Lily said she had desired the gift of tongues, so that she would never run out of words to say, since the Spirit would always put the words in her mouth! She did say that she had to give up alcohol before she was granted this gift. Hmm… They claimed victory in my circumstances and spiritual battle. They laughed in the face of the enemy (Satan) and commanded me to forgive those who had hurt me. I had to confess my anger and bitterness against Judge A (I thought he was prejudiced against me from the beginning) and the liquidators, whom I felt had chosen to sue only me due to greed (they had assumed my parents would help me settle the legal suit). In praying to forgive them, I had to say their names and release them to God, by throwing my cupped hands into the air, akin to setting their names, held in my hands, free. It was somewhat cathartic, although I had already prayed to forgive them a few days earlier. (See previous post).
May 24, 2026
2nd August 2024 I am grateful that God has given me locum jobs at various clinics over the past one and a half months. I would not have imagined in May this year that I would settle in so quickly as a locum, seeing patients at different clinics, using different clinic management systems. The Holy Spirit is telling me to move on from what has been happening to me, by learning to forgive and to love those who have hurt me. I must not be resentful towards IPP's liquidators, their lawyers or the CAD, the Prosecutors and others whom I feel have wronged me. Instead, the Spirit wants me to pray for them, their salvation and even for them to know the Lord Jesus Christ! Matthew 6:4 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 5:43-45a, 48 43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbour and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, 45 that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; 48 Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.
May 24, 2026
21st July 2024 God's love for us is unconditional, as is His grace. Yet, I had spent many years building broken cisterns that held no water. These broken cisterns were my career, my own strength, my financial resources and my pride. These things I now count as rubbish! In place of our broken cisterns, God has promised “…to give (us)…houses full of all good things, which (we) did not fill, hewn-out wells which (we) did not dig, vineyards and olive trees which (we) did not plant.” Deuteronomy 6:10–11, NKJV. But the prerequisite to receiving God's promise is in Deuteronomy 6:5: You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.
May 24, 2026
4th July 2024 I had been disturbed and distracted in the past two days, since receiving a notice from my lawyers that the lawyers for IPP had filed a court application for an Examination of Judgment Debtor (“EJD”), which was a preliminary step a party took before enforcing a judgment. An EJD order would require the judgment debtor (me) to provide information on my assets etc. Following this, the judgment creditor (IPP) could decide on the appropriate manner to enforce the judgment (i.e., garnishee order, seizure and sale of assets etc). Whilst I knew in my heart that God had control of this situation, the process was still disconcerting and discombobulating. 2 Corinthians 4:7-10 was, therefore, a source of comfort for me in the past two days. Although I felt trapped in a never-ending cycle of oppression, I knew that God had surrounded me with His angels. I could sense them when I was sleeping and in the day, I had friends who encouraged me with listening nods. I am not crushed, not in despair, not forsaken by God and not destroyed. The gospel of my Lord Jesus is the power of God that drives me on. His Holy Spirit lives in me.
May 20, 2026
22nd June 2024 Today, I went back to being a GP (locum) and I saw my first patient in 19 years. I had stopped clinical work back in 2005, when I had transitioned into full-time healthcare management work as CEO of Gleneagles Hospital. GL (sister-in-Christ) had shared the verses from Isaiah 65 with me yesterday and I received them as rhema from the Lord. I have been chosen by God and His promise was that my labour shall not be in vain. Better still, I shall enjoy my work! My children will be blessed and we shall worship the Lord forever.
May 20, 2026
10th June 2024 I was led by the Spirit to read Jeremiah and Ezra in relation to the vision of the dead stick coming alive (see previous post). In Jeremiah chapter 29, the prophet warned the exiled people of Israel of the following false prophecies (of Ahab and Shemaiah) – that they would be slain in Babylon; and that every man who considered himself a prophet (God’s spokesman) should be put in prison. This was in contrast with Jeremiah’s word from God, saying, “This captivity is long; build houses and dwell in them, and plant gardens and eat their fruit.” (Jeremiah 29:28) The false prophecies would have caused the people to doubt God’s love and providence for them, whereas Jeremiah’s prophecy had the opposite effect. Through Jeremiah, the people of Israel would find the strength to keep on living, even though they were captives in a foreign land. Not only that, they would continue to multiply and live under God’s grace, having shelter and food. This was no different from my present circumstances. I had been uprooted from my comfortable life and relative position of influence. I had been taken to alien territory and reduced to a lowly status of unemployment, devoid of position. Yet, God wants me to continue bearing fruit for Him. My strength comes from the Lord, not from my status or earthly wealth. In Ezra 3:11b-13, Then all the people shouted with a great shout, when they praised the LORD, because the foundation of the house of the LORD was laid. But many of the priests and Levites and heads of the fathers’ houses, old men who had seen the first temple, wept with a loud voice when the foundation of this temple was laid before their eyes. Yet many shouted aloud for joy, so that the people could not discern the noise of the shout of joy from the noise of the weeping of the people, for the people shouted with a loud shout, and the sound was heard afar off. God was reminding me not to dwell on my ‘past glory’ or what had been lost as a result of my trials. Do not cry or fret, He said. Instead, fix my eyes on Him and His promise to give me a hope and a future. Hallelujah! These are the days that He has made. I shall rejoice and be glad in them. So how did these two passages in Jeremiah and Ezra tie in with the vision of the dead stick coming alive? Simply that I, too, was in a state of transition. I once was dead, but am now alive. And not only alive, but bearing fruit! This was not a time for tears of sorrow. No, this called for tears of joy!
May 20, 2026
4th June 2024 I received a vision from God through Esther, a sister-in-Christ, who was invited to attend our Psalm 23 cell group meeting tonight. The vision was of a long, thin stick, which was dead; then it started to bud, flower and bear fruit. The vision was accompanied by two words, Resurrection Life. What did this vision mean? The Lord said, “ You are elect. You shall do even greater things than I have done. Weeping may last a night, but joy comes in the morning, I shall give you joy – not in plenty, but also when you walk in faith through the valley of the shadow of death. You shall rise again as you lean on me and walk with me. I shall never forsake you.” My brothers and sisters-in-Christ prayed for me and CH at the close of the Psalm 23 meeting. They prayed in tongues. Esther, echoing God’s instructions, reminded me to love LW as I was one with her. I laughed during the prayer. I knew it was true. I knew it was the ‘natural thing’ to do, yet I had not uttered such words of love for so long. God was reminding me to love like He loves. It was the key to my resurrection life.
May 20, 2026
2nd June 2024 I’ve often quoted each of these verses on its own, but today, they have come together to give me the peace I was seeking. My trials have been ordained by God to test my faith in Him. These trials will last for a season, so that I learn patience in waiting for His saving work. In patience, I shall be made perfect and complete, lacking nothing, because God will show Himself to be sufficient for me. He is all I need. Yes, there will be moments of doubt and these are times when I am invited by Jesus to enter His rest, seeking His wisdom. The Holy Spirit, deposited in my heart, is revealing to me His purposes for my trials – not to harm me, but to prosper me and give me hope and a future. This hope does not disappoint and will remove all doubt that Jesus loves me. He is Jehovah Jireh, my Provider. He is my peace that has broken down every wall of hurt, regret and sadness. That is why I rejoice always. May my gentleness be known to all men. Psalm 30:5 For His anger is but for a moment, His favour is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning. Philippians 4:19 19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Matthew 11:28 28 Come to Me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Jeremiah 29:11 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Genesis 22:14 14 And Abraham called the name of the place, The-LORD-Will-Provide; as it is said to this day, “In the Mount of the LORD it shall be provided.” Isaiah 9:6 For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given; and the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counsellor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Ephesians 2:14 14 For He Himself is our peace, who has made both one, and has broken down the middle wall of separation… Philippians 4:4-5 4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
May 19, 2026
28th May 2024 I was told today that the Plaintiffs in the IPP case were prepared to let me settle the case for a few million dollars, which was a small fraction of the USD146M awarded. My lawyers and friends said I should accept the offer, as it represented a relatively small price to pay for the guarantee of not being made a bankrupt (assuming I could raise the 'few million dollars'). But I did not have peace when I heard this. This would mean dropping my appeal and I would not be vindicated, since I would have to accept the judge’s initial findings. If I were to continue my appeal, however, I would have to incur more legal expenses, with no certainty of winning the appeal. Yet, has God not asked me to walk in faith? Has God not told me that He, who has started a good work in me, will see it to completion in Christ Jesus? I did not feel the Spirit’s prompting to drop my appeal and to negotiate a settlement. Neither did LW, who is one with me.
May 19, 2026
7th May 2024 Shared my impending bankruptcy predicament with the Psalm 23 prayer group and was touched when LW, S and TC said I could and should pray against it. I had held to the mindset that I should let God carry out His plan, but I was reminded that even as God carried out His plan, I could still pray for deliverance and His grace and mercy to cover me. Indeed, God’s sovereignty means He does as He pleases and knows what the end will be, because He declares it. It doesn’t mean I cannot plead with Him and ask Him for the wisdom to understand what is happening and why I have to go through my specific trials. S also said that when I had shared about learning humility through my ordeals the previous week, she wanted me to know that it meant casting all my cares upon Him and not seeing myself as inferior and incapable. Bringing my worries and anxieties to God means letting Him take charge and surrendering to Him; all glory to Him! I must decrease and He must increase. 1 Peter 5:6-7 6 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
May 19, 2026
2nd May 2024 I have been out of work for a month now and the last couple of weeks have been challenging for me, as I grapple with the niggling doubt and fear regarding finances and being useful! The silver lining has come in the form of time available to catch up with my reading (Primary Care Medicine), attending online lectures and accumulating CME points to reinstate my physician practising licence. Everyday now is a reminder to believe in James 4:15 – if the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that. I thank God for every breath that I take and being able to walk in His will. I have also been blessed by the Psalm 23 prayer group that meets once a week. We have met 4 times now and each meeting has been a blessing for me. God has used my brothers-in-Christ to comfort me through their sharing and prayer. LW (wife) has also joined me in the last two meetings, which has made me glad, as she has been a pillar of strength and support for me, and now, for the prayer group also. TC's wife, has also been faithful in her prayers and I know that CH’s wife will also be encouraged to return to the Lord.
May 19, 2026
22nd April 2024, Monday During last Friday’s small group, I had talked about the good tree bearing good fruit and the bad tree bearing bad fruit. That was how we could tell between a true prophet and a false one, according to Jesus in Matthew 7:18-20: 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Therefore by their fruits you will know them. I then asked if my heart was right with God, because the judge in the IPP case had ruled against me, saying that I was untruthful and he did not believe me. Was I bearing bad fruit without realising it? I was not asking for affirmation from the small group, but to say that I wanted God to search my heart and to reveal if there was any wicked way in it, so that I may be led in the way everlasting (Psalm 139:23-24). I thank God that even as I asked the Holy Spirit for an answer, He showed me Hebrew 4:12 tonight (rhema): For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Indeed, what has God’s Word been doing in my life? It has guided me and given me peace. It has pointed out my sins and led me to repentance. In both the cases of IPP and NSG, my conscience is clear. Jesus was with me in court for IPP’s case and I had sworn an oath on His Word to tell the truth. If and when the judge calls me a liar, I know my God will defend me for His name’s sake. He is holy and my righteousness comes from Him – this is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, by His grace, when Jesus died for me (Isaiah 54:17). With my pride, I had sinned. I had not considered the Lord in my career and family for many years and God was right in testing me in the furnace of affliction. Yet, even so, for the sake of His name and glory, He will protect me because I am chosen, a child of God and a co-heir with Christ (1 Peter 2:9, Romans 8:16-17).
May 19, 2026
18th April 2024 Today, the Holy Spirit pointed me to 2 Corinthians 1:3-4: 3 and Philippians 2:1-4. LW (wife) had pointed these truths to me previously, that God has a purpose for my circumstances. He is preparing me to be an encourager and comforter to others who are or will be going through similar trials. In so doing, I can be a bearer of Good News, the gospel of hope in Christ, my redeemer and perfecter of my faith. There is a pre-requisite to serving God as His comforter to the weak. I, myself, must be humble, drawing strength from the Lord and not being dependent on my ‘earthly cisterns’, idols or human wisdom. He had revealed this to me earlier this week, when He had drawn me back to Zephaniah 3:17: The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing. The pre-requisite for His joy over me is my humility before Him, acknowledging Him as my one true God, my Creator and my Saviour. He is my Jehovah Nissi, and His banner over me is love: Zephaniah 3:11-12 In that day you shall not be shamed for any of your deeds In which you transgress against Me; For then I will take away from your midst Those who rejoice in your pride, And you shall no longer be haughty In My holy mountain. 12 I will leave in your midst A meek and humble people, And they shall trust in the name of the LORD.
May 18, 2026
9th April 2024 First prayer meeting with CH and TC this evening. CH had organised the meeting, calling it the ‘Psalm 23 Cell Group’, a reference to their experience in the cells of the Prison Complex. They both shared that they had peace during the more than 24 hours they had spent there and attested to the presence of the Holy Spirit. We reminded each other to fix our eyes on Jesus and things above. However, the evening got me thinking about preparing to spend time in prison, since the DPP, in my case, was pressing for a custodial sentence. How was I to serve the Lord if imprisoned? I had never contemplated this, insofar that I was praying for deliverance, but as Jesus had said, not my will but God’s be done.
May 18, 2026
22nd March 2024 More disturbing news today. I read in the papers that the CLG independent directors and their former CEO had been arrested, apparently for a non-disclosure offence. CLG was a company which I was chairman of until I stepped down in 2020, and I knew the IDs and the former CEO well. They had been very supportive when I was going through my trials in the past 3 years and the former CEO, in particular, had been encouraging me with God’s Word. I interpret these events as signs of the end times. The devil is afoot and will start to tear the church apart. I sense that Satan will pit Christian brother against brother and will gloat as they speak ill of each other. He knows that we, as human beings, care about our face and will, out of pride, do what it takes to protect our reputations at the expense of others. We must pray incessantly for God to protect us with His armour, so that the devil’s fiery darts will not harm us. It was my turn to encourage my brothers and sister. JH (to CH), in a Whatsapp message: Psalm 33:20-22 Our soul waits for the LORD; He is our help and our shield. 21 For our heart shall rejoice in Him, Because we have trusted in His holy name. 22 Let Your mercy, O LORD, be upon us, Just as we hope in You. You know I’ve been there, gone through it. Keep a prayer journal so that you may be encouraged when you see God’s hand at work. CH, in reply: I felt Psalm 23 in the cell. I wonder if we can start a prayer group with TC and myself JH: Thanks for sharing! Yes, Let's do that! And that was the conception of our Psalm 23 Cell Group, a fellowship of brothers going through trials together.
May 18, 2026
21st February 2024 My boss, Dr A, was in town for his periodic meeting with the staff in Singapore. I caught up with him over breakfast, when he informed me that the company would not be renewing my engagement after March. Meanwhile, LW (wife) forwarded me a heartwarming message from SY (small group sister-in-Christ) this morning. Definitely not a coincidence: Dear LW and JH, You have been in my prayers and mind continually. I may not always know what to pray for, but I pray that He is all you need, that your joy is complete in Him, and that you will rejoice always. Your steadfast faith and endurance in Him inspires me. Your abiding and rejoicing, even in hardships, convicts me that He is the rock that will lift you out of the mud and mire, and put a new song in your mouth. ”I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.“ Psalms 40:1-3 NIV I feel like Paul to the Thessalonians when I think of you both. Your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord, amid severe suffering, with the joy given by the Holy Spirit, is a model to us all. And because He has chosen you, His power will be with you. “We always thank God for all of you and continually mention you in our prayers. We remember before our God and Father **your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.** For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that he has chosen you, because our gospel came to you not simply with words but also with power, with the Holy Spirit and deep conviction. You know how we lived among you for your sake. You became imitators of us and of the Lord, for you welcomed the message in the midst of severe suffering with the joy given by the Holy Spirit. And so you became a model to all the believers in Macedonia and Achaia.“ 1 Thessalonians 1:2-7 NIV We wait. We trust. We pray. We consider it pure joy in trials, that the power of our Lord, and the perfecter of our faith is at work in us. He may not calm the storm, but He is in the storm with you. Daniel’s faith is not perfected in the lion’s den but in the prayer closet. One day, this nightmare will make sense. I want to encourage you - to stay strong and know that you have been a great blessing to many and I thank God every day for you. His blessings, SY
May 17, 2026
20th February 2024 I’ll be lying if I say that I am happy with the trials in my life. I still have doubts regarding whether I can overturn the IPP verdict and prove myself innocent in the NSG case, but God continues to remind me that He will not leave me or forsake me. He not only goes with me, He will send others to go before me and help me fight the battles which I am unable to. I must stand firm and believe in His providence. I can see the care and concern of my parents, too. How much more my Lord Jesus loves me! Surely He will be my Advocate and appeal on my behalf!
May 17, 2026
6th February 2024 God gave me this passage from Hebrews 13:5-6 for my meditation this morning. It was apt, as the court released the judge’s remarks to the mainstream media around noon today and I was soon receiving messages from my friends and acquaintances, some simply curious to find out if the news was true, but most to encourage me. God loves and comforts me as I call to Him in my despair, but He has also mobilised the power of community and friendship to lift my spirit.
May 16, 2026
28th January 2024 God is sovereign and He is Lord of my life. He is holy forever. His will overrides my plans and I desire my heart to be in union with His Spirit. I trust in God’s providence for my family and me. I shall neither fear the arrows that fly overhead nor the soldiers encamped around me, for He will not test us beyond what we can bear, but will always provide a way out. Even so, I know that the Holy Spirit in me is love, wisdom and power. May my story be an encouragement for my parents, my children and my brothers and sisters-in-Christ. The heart of my trials is the gospel message that Jesus saves. He, who has created the heavens and the earth, has also written our stories before we were born. They are stories of people victorious in faith and because of it, they are counted as righteous before God.
May 15, 2026
24th January 2024 Bad news. My lawyer for the IPP civil suit against me called me to say that the judge had found me liable for the full sum of USD146M. I’m looking at bankruptcy, since there is no way I can repay the amount. In a way, I had expected this – like Job’s experience, the devil will test me with actual loss to see how I respond. It will not be the end. I know the DPP in the NSG case will also push as hard as he can for me to go to jail. I can only keep praying for God’s sustenance and for my family to adapt to a more frugal life. Do I worry? I’d be lying if I said no. I will have to give up my creature comforts, struggle with paying the bills and will not be able to travel freely (so it will affect my job chances) and possibly miss my daughter's graduation. God, what is Your plan? I trust You and I know You will only show me one step at a time. Lord, give me the wisdom to discern Your will, so that I may present myself as Your servant, honourable in my behaviour. I do not want to grovel for human favour. Instead, I rely solely on Your succour and mercy.
May 15, 2026
7th January 2024 (Sunday) I encountered this passage in Revelation chapter 21 three times over the past 24 hours. It started off with my quiet time on Saturday morning, when I meditated on verses 4-7, then John 14:1-4, where I was assured by Jesus’s promise that He had prepared a room for me in the Father’s house. Nothing on this earth will rob me of this future, a future where I am a co-heir and co-ruler with Christ, where I am a child of God, inheriting all things in God’s kingdom. Romans 8:16-18 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. 18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. On Saturday afternoon, Crystal shared that Rev 21:4 had comforted her in her dad’s passing, because her earthly father had received God’s grace and blessing of eternal life. Then this morning, in church, we had a scripture reading and song from Revelation 21:6, reminding me that God is the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End. However, God has also impressed upon my heart that this passage from Revelation 21 is preceded by a period of Satanic rebellion, when God releases Satan from prison after Christ had returned and reigned for a thousand years (Revelation 20:7). Why does God do that? I do not know for certain, but I believe it is God’s final chance to the people to choose Him or the devil. Indeed, Satan will go out to deceive the nations which are in the four corners of the earth, Gog and Magog, to gather them together to battle, whose number is as the sand of the sea (Revelation 20:8). Alas, many will still reject God, even after Christ has returned to rule.
May 13, 2026
3rd January 2024 I was informed by my lawyers last evening that the DPP wanted to press for a custodial sentence for me, as one of the alleged conspirators to rig the share price of NSG. Obviously, I was despondent on reading my lawyers’ email, but who was I to ask God why He was putting me through this ordeal? Even King Nebuchadnezzar knew that God was sovereign, when he said, in Daniel 4:35, “All the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing; He does according to His will in the army of heaven And among the inhabitants of the earth. No one can restrain His hand Or say to Him, “What have You done?” Instead, I should declare with confidence, as in Romans 5:3-5: …we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; 4 and perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
May 13, 2026
1st January 2024 It’s a new year! However, I did not wake up finding that everything that had happened in 2023 was but a dream. The troubles are still there and the anxieties still weigh heavy, albeit fleeting.
May 13, 2026
25th December 2023 I enjoyed my first sunrise and it was a blessing to do so on Christmas Day, with LW (wife)! She is the veteran of sunrises and she brought us to Sembawang Beach Jetty, where I was reminded of Jesus' return (see Matthew 24)! This will happen after the great tribulation (and after the first rapture). The people will mourn when this happens because they will begin to regret the times they rejected Christ as the Lord of their lives. Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord – even those who do not acknowledge Christ as their Lord will know that He is indeed the Son of God. Yet, it will be a time of rejoicing for those whom Jesus has chosen and called. They, who are His elect, will be gathered and taken with Him to paradise, where they shall rule the kingdoms with Him, but not before Satan is loosed on earth for a thousand years. This will be the second chance given to those who are left on earth. Indeed, our God is compassionate and slow to anger. My Lord Jesus is the reason for the hope that I have, in spite of the seemingly dark clouds that have gathered. I have been chosen and called; justified by my faith in Christ and sanctified by the Holy Spirit, in order to glorify and honour Him forever and ever. All this will come to pass by the grace of God, through Whom all mercies and blessings flow!
May 13, 2026
24th December 2023 It’s Christmas eve and rhema for me today comes from John 16:13-15. I have been asking God to let me hear Him clearly, to remove the noise that so easily distracts me from His voice. I have asked for discernment, to sieve out false promises from His truth and I thank the Holy Spirt for guiding me and reminding me of this word from Jesus. Firstly, the Holy Spirit, who is in my heart, speaks on the authority of God. When I surrender my heart to God, I shall hear the Spirit tell me clearly the things to come. The Spirit glorifies Christ and I must do so likewise, if I am in holy communion with the Spirit. The Holy Spirit will declare that what belongs to Jesus also belongs to me! Yes, I am a co-heir with Christ, who has been given all things by the Heavenly Father, Almighty God, Yahweh. More importantly, however, is that Jesus has fully paid the price for my sins and redeemed me for Himself. I belong to Jesus Christ. God is faithful and will take care of me precisely because I belong to Jesus Christ, His beloved Son.
May 13, 2026
23rd December 2023 When we look at what is happening in the world, we sometimes ask ourselves why God allows wars, murders and all kinds of heinous crimes to be committed. We may even wrongly attribute the evil to God, by asking why He created such evil men. After all, Satan is a created being, isn’t he? See how Jesus described Satan in John 8:44: He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it. So evil is the absence of Truth, of God and the reliance on one own’s strength and resources. I would say that God created beautiful creatures, but because He also gave us the freedom of choice, He allowed us (unfortunately) the freedom to reject Him. He did not create evil. Evil and sin are borne out of the rejection of God’s love, goodness and providence for us. Darkness exists because light is absent.
May 13, 2026
19th December 2023 Why am I writing this journal? First and foremost, it is a means of baring my soul to God and a means to allow His Spirit to fill my thoughts and move my hand as I write (or type). I am attempting to write without ‘over-processing’ my thoughts, which will then mean that I am taking control, as opposed to allowing the Spirit full reign of my heart and mind in holy communion. I wish this journal to be inspired by God and profitable for instruction in righteousness, which I define as living for the glory of God. The second reason is to share this with my children, whom I want to continue in these things that they have learned from childhood – the assurance of God’s promises and His wisdom for salvation through faith in Jesus Christ. There will always be false prophets, promising a life of comfort and easy living, but God’s heart is for us to know Him intimately. This intimacy will entail trials and tribulations, as He refines us like silver and prepares us for an eternal life of service to Him. We are called to rule the heavenly kingdoms and all creation as co-heirs with Christ. Our earthly trials are temporary and shall pass.
May 12, 2026
14th December 2023 Thank You, Lord, for every blessing under heaven. You have blessed me with more than I need and more than I can imagine. Even though the arrows fly overhead and the enemies encamp around me, You have prepared a table for me to dine in the presence of my enemies. Your angels surround me and Your favour protects me as with a shield. Indeed, my shield is the shield of faith – believing in the testimonies of the saints that You have sent to me, with words of encouragement and hope. Whilst my faith is in things unseen, it is not in things unknown; for Your love and sacrifice for me is clearly known and clearly expressed in my life. I am blessed with wonderful parents, who clearly love me and will do anything to protect me. My wife loves me in ways that can only be due to Your love being channeled through her, for I have not been able to express my love enough. I confess that I have also not expressed my love for You often enough. Forgive me. I am blessed with beautiful children, physically, and more importantly, in spirit. Thank You, Lord, for depositing the Holy Spirit in their hearts and I pray that the Spirit will grow and commune with their spirits, as He communes with mine. Our communion is one where You take charge, O Lord, yet we are also participants in our decisions, conduct and actions. We cannot absolve ourselves from blame, as You have given us the freedom to choose, whether to obey You or to ignore You. I want to obey You. I trust You and I love You. Flow through me, Holy Spirit, and let Your thoughts be my thoughts. I ask for forgiveness for my sins – my wilfulness and choices in my career. I know You would have me serve You in healthcare, where there are souls to be healed and to give a hope for the reason that I have, to live as one with eternal life, rather than one who lives as if my days on earth were numbered. Others may believe that ‘you only live once’, but I know that in You, I live forever. I ask that You take the yoke of my current situation away from me, for it has been a long 3 years and it appears that it will go on for another 3. Yet, You have said that I must be patient and the time has not yet come for my trials to stop. I ask You, then, for the fruit of Your Spirit, which is patience, peace and joy, in spite of my circumstances. I ask for self-control, that I do not allow my emotions and feelings to overwhelm me. Instead, O Lord, please let me be filled with the fruit of Your Spirit – love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. In all these things, may I truly know You and experience You. May I be the expressed image of You to others. What are Your plans for my children? Will I be able to attend their graduations? Will I be able to provide for them, my wife and my aging parents? I do have many questions and am uncertain about the future. Yet I know You are in the wind and the storms. Your answer is carried in the gentle whispers of the wind, on clouds above and even in the peace of each dark night. Let me seek solace in things unknown, for You are there. Yes, You have plans for my children and they will be to glorify You. You have placed them in situations that will not be beyond what they can bear. Do not fear for their future, for You are there with them. You will prepare the way for them and You will guide them with Your angels. Thank You, O Lord, for Your promises. Yes, I shall be able to attend their graduations, no matter what happens, because You will clear the path for me. I shall be able to rejoice with them as You rejoice with me. You have promised to sing with me and for me, as in Zephaniah. Thank You for Your mercies, O Lord! Yes, whilst I may not seem to be able to provide financially for my family, You shall provide for them in ways beyond my imagination. You shall be more than sufficient for my family’s needs, for we are Your servants and Your beloved. I should not seek to be able to provide for my family’s needs on my own strength, for that will be repeating the mistakes of my past. Instead, let me learn to lean on You and Your promises for our future. You have plans for us, not to harm us, but to give us hope for a future. You shall see us through this time of testing and we shall be found faithful. We shall not turn away from You, because we are tightly gripped by Your hands – hands of love and security. You shall hide us under Your wings and allow us time to rest and to recover. You have further plans for us, not only in this world, but in the worlds to come. Thank You, Lord, for allowing us to rule with You in the heavenly realms; to have dominion over all Your creations as we rule with Your heart and Your purpose. May Your will be done always, on earth as it is in heaven. Hallelujah! Blessed be Your name! Jesus, name above all names! Amen.
May 12, 2026
29th November 2023 I started the day seeking God’s direction by reading His Word (“Show me Your Truth from Your Word, O Lord!”) and the verses in Jeremiah 31:35 and 27-28 were revealed to me. Yahweh had first confirmed His presence through the nature around me, as I sat and typed these words – He is the creator of the sun, the moon and the stars. He controls the tides and weather. He then assured me that although I had made bad decisions in my life and brought harm to myself, the time had come for Him to rebuild my life. He has sown the seeds and will watch over me as I fulfil my heavenly mission.
May 12, 2026
27th November 2023 Over the years, I have heard testimonies of how God has spoken to various people in different ways. He speaks through His Word and operates in our thoughts and conscience, but our thoughts can be clouded by what is in our hearts; hence, the importance of delighting in the Lord (as we read in Psalm 37:4). The Spirit and the Word are consistent when prompting us and they affirm our actions as being in step with God by giving us comfort, peace and joy when we obey. However, God also communicates directly with us through our five senses, as I had recorded in my journal: ● Sight – GL saw the giant hand of God covering her as she lay awake in bed and she felt a comfort that she had never previously experienced; ● Smell – God had spoken to Cleo through visions, accompanied by a fragrance, when she was a child; ● Touch – Pastor G had shared that he could feel a tingling sensation on his skin when God communicated with him. KDL had also shared that she had experienced a heavy weight upon her, rendering her unable to move. She described this as the Lord’s weight of glory. ● Hearing – the audible voice of God is rare, I feel, but some profess to have heard Him speak. (KDL testified of this). ● Taste – I have not heard testimonies regarding God presenting Himself as a taste on the tongue, but we all know that we can taste and see that the Lord is good!
May 12, 2026
24th November 2023 When Paul said, “…circumcision is that of the heart, in the Spirit, not in the letter (Law),” what did he mean? (Rom 2:29) Paul wanted to emphasise the importance of seeking God and fearing Him. To do so, I have to turn away from things that are ‘unprofitable’. The attitude of my heart matters most – to love Christ with all my heart, my mind and soul. Am I seeking to understand the heart of God when I speak and act? God constantly searches my heart, where the Holy Spirit resides. Am I led by His Spirit (who also intercedes for me) or am I suppressing Him? Circumcision (my being set apart for God, to be holy) is of the heart, by the Spirit.
May 12, 2026
15th November 2023 Imagine that! As I wait patiently for the Lord’s deliverance, He will put a new song in my mouth to praise my God, my strength and shield. And when I sing and praise God, many will see and fear the Lord, putting their trust in Him! Hallelujah!
May 12, 2026
13th November 2023 I received a message from a sister-in-Christ today, sharing that she had been feeling depressed and helpless for the past six months, She described being alone in fighting a battle with spirits, whom she could see. She had been praying and reading the bible, but did not feel better and was beginning to doubt her relationship with God. She had stopped going to church and had refused help from them because, "They don’t understand; they make me feel slow, incapable and, worst of all, stupid." However, her Christian friends did not give up and continued praying for her. She agreed to meet them and as they laid hands on her and prayed over her, she fell to the ground and saw a vision. She said, "(An) Indian Buddha in human form appeared and I took a sword to cut him into half. After that I felt the greatest peace and I slept so so well. GOD is good, HE never gives up on me."
May 12, 2026
9th November 2023 When I meditated on this passage on 3 May 2023, I was in the midst of my trial (IPP). During the trial, I had experienced God's mercies and grace as He provided a cloud of witnesses of God's love for me - angels and brothers/ sisters-in-Christ, who had comforted and encouraged me with their prayers. There were also witnesses at the trial who testified in my favour. Yet, I was constantly reminded by Godly witnesses not to rely on my own strength or allow thoughts of anger, bitterness, despair and pride to consume me. These would be the sin that ensnared - the failure to trust God completely. This trial was started by the Lord and He will see it to completion to achieve His purpose: calling me back to Him and rescuing me from the sinful ways of the world; transforming me by the renewal of my mind.
May 11, 2026
3rd November 2023 We all deserve the loving discipline of God, for we are sinners and He yearns to draw us back to Him whenever we drift away. However, this is different from receiving the wrath of God, which is reserved for those who reject God and His love, even though they know that He exists, for He can be clearly seen in the world around us and the daily miracles revealed in His creations. Indeed, I must not fall prey to rejecting His love in the midst of my trials. It is so tempting to complain and to take things into our own hands, but doing so will make us ‘adversaries of God’. Quoting Nahum 1:2-3, my wife reminded me that the Lord has His way in the whirlwind and in the storm, and the clouds are the dust of His feet! If He is for us, who can be against us? Do not fear the storms of life, for our Almighty God is bigger.
May 9, 2026
31st October 2023 We live for Christ and we are called to share the gospel through the way we live. Yet, there will be people who will ridicule us and harm us as we do so. Satan will likewise send out his armies against us. We must persevere, as Christ – who loves us – is, Himself, faithful and had endured the cross before Him, that we may be saved. I hold on to this Truth – that Christ will jealously defend His Name by defending those who remain faithful to Him.
May 7, 2026
28th October 2023, Saturday I had dinner with LW (wife) tonight and she reminded me of James 4:13-15. Amen! It is the Lord’s will whether I live or die, whether I succeed or fail. He creates the seasons in our lives with purpose, which is always to draw us closer to Him, that we may know him intimately and are able to rule His kingdoms as co-heirs with Him. There is nothing in my life that has not happened outside of the Lord’s sovereign will and so it shall be in the future. Let me not boast of anything other than the Lord’s love for me. My time on earth is but like a vapour, a mist that shall dissipate but I shall live on in eternity.
May 7, 2026
27th October 2023, Friday I shared with my small group tonight that I had been getting up later in the morning because I had reduced my job scope and did not have as much work as before. There was a sense of emptiness, perhaps a lack of purpose, although I knew that was not entirely true, since I still had responsibilities in QH. It could be that I, like many others, equated my self-worth relative to my earnings. This would be wrong. Both Gina and Ron shared their experiences when they each went through their no-work phase. Ron’s desert phase was when his company had just started and was struggling to keep afloat, whilst Gina’s was when she had quit from her previous company without a job and struggled for six months to find employment. Both spent their months meditating on God’s Word and also reading books by Christian authors. Gina said she kept looking for joy in Joel Osteen’s books, although she admitted that it was God who finally blessed her with a job which ‘landed in her lap’. Their assurance to me was to continue fixing my eyes on Jesus and He would take care of my daily needs. I did not need to worry about where my next job would come from, if at all – God had already taken care of that.
May 7, 2026
26th October 2023, Thursday Pastor G made his monthly visit to my home this morning. We spoke about the battles being fought – not against flesh and blood, but in the spiritual realm. Pastor G said that the devil (and his schemes) are defeated by God working out His plan through men. Hence, even though the battle belongs to the Lord, our God fights the battle through men of faith. Examples of these are in the bible – Moses against the Pharoah, David against the Philistines, Gideon against the Amalekites; Joshua and the battle of Jericho; Jesus (who has come in the flesh, is of God – 1 John 4:2) against Satan; and the apostles being martyred for the gospel. Ephesians 6:12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Walking in faith involves courage. Whilst our faith starts from having a ‘right relationship’ with God, we need to empty ourselves and be filled with His divine love, wisdom and courage to do Spirit-led things which our human minds say are impossible or crazy, even. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. Once we are able to walk in His will with courage, we will manifest Christ in us through the works that He will accomplish through us – therefore, faith without works is dead, as our life in Christ will always be accompanied by good works of the Spirit. Through Christ, all things are possible. I guess I am still at the stage of setting my heart on things above – the kingdom of God – and plucking up the courage to trust in His providence.
May 6, 2026
25th October 2023, Wednesday GL (friend and sister-in-Christ) had prayed Psalm 34 over me today. I was subconsciously aware of my anxious state over the weekend, which had carried over to Monday, as I hadn’t felt like penning my thoughts or prayers over the period. Perhaps I was tired of constantly wishing that life would return to ‘normal’, yet I would wake up each morning with two thoughts: when will the verdict of my IPP civil suit be out; and how long was it going to be till the share manipulation charges against me were brought to trial? But the Holy Spirit unites us all in the body of Christ and it was through GL, again, that He spoke. I must sing the praises of the Lord and praise His name forever, regardless of how I feel! For I am called to walk by faith – faith that God is at work restoring my relationship with Him through the trials I am going through. I shall taste and see that the Lord is good! His favour is upon those who are in a ‘right relationship’ with Him – our righteousness comes from Him.
May 6, 2026
14th Oct 2023 LW (wife) shared the above two Scripture passages with me today. It was a reminder that our life stories have been written in heaven, even before our birth. God has set us apart to serve Him and He will put His words in our mouth to share the gospel and Christ’s dominion over all nations and kingdoms. LW wanted me to be sensitive to God’s presence all around me. He speaks to us through people and nature, yes, through all His creations. LW had shared these verses in Jeremiah in response to my sharing during CG (care group) the previous night, when I said I realised how much my boss, Dr Ameen, cared for me when he appointed me as a consultant to QH, even though the company’s shareholders had wanted me to step down completely. How easy it is to miss God’s hand in the things that happen around us and to us. We often notice the hurt when our lives get messed up, but fail to see that in the hurt, there is also joy, when God comforts us in His embrace in the middle of the storm.
May 5, 2026
7th October 2023 This was God’s reminder for me today. Why do I dwell on things on earth, where dust and moth shall eat away? My trials are temporary, but my hope is eternal and of far greater glory, because I am going where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Can I let go of my earthly desires and possessions and follow Christ? What are the things I value (e.g. family, career, financial stability) and are they truly valuable or only a mist which appears for a short time, then disappears? Do I believe that Jesus Christ is all whom I need, now and forever?
May 5, 2026
4th October 2023 It’s our 26th wedding anniversary today! LW and I had a pleasant dinner at an Italian restaurant in Chip Bee Gardens (Holland Village), followed by a sweaty walk in Botanic Gardens (Gallop Gables Extension) under very balmy conditions. It was my wife, LW, who reminded me of God's desire in Psalm 51:17. Am I offering my broken spirit and contrite heart to God? Am I humble or proud? God has humbled me. He has brought me to my knees, acknowledging that all that I have built with my own hands has been easily destroyed. What has survived the onslaught of current events? The fruit of the Spirit in me – His love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. It is with His fruit that I am now called to serve others.
May 5, 2026
29th September 2023, Friday We held our first small group meeting at home since I was charged in court. The brothers and sisters said they had been waiting for me to arrange the meeting. I guess nobody really dared to approach me as they were concerned about my state of mind. Indeed, Joanne shared the story of her Taiwanese dad, who had gone through similar persecution when she was a child. She had seen how the seven years of waiting for his trial to end had taken a toll on her father and he had become frail as a result. He had not known Christ. I thank God that I am chosen and called by Him. The Lord, who is my Shepherd, will lead me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake. He prepares a table before me in the presence of my enemies. He anoints my head with oil and my cup overflows. Why should I be afraid?
May 5, 2026
27th September 2023, Wednesday Today’s sharing is of my Whatsapp conversation with my College Council mate, Cleo, who lives in Australia. She was diagnosed with liver cancer half a year ago and has been through numerous treatments, including a surgical operation that brought her to the brink of death and back. Yet, she found the time and strength to encourage me. [Cleo: Dear Jin Hian, I am holding you and your family close to my heart and my prayers at this very trying time of your life. Don’t lose heart and don’t give up, ok? Let me know if there is any way I can help, even in a tiny manner. Love you, my dear friend. Cleo 💝 Jin Hian: Good morning, Cleo. What I'm going through is nothing compared to you. Thank you for your prayers. Are you feeling better? Cleo: Still up and down. Will find out in November if the radioactive treatment is at all effective at retarding the cancer growth. Do u need some money, Jin Hian? If so, let me know, between Gareth and me, we shall see what we can do to help out. Jin Hian: Wow, Cleo. You're thinking of me whilst you're fighting your battles. I'm really grateful. I'm fine, though. God has always provided and He has always been good. I wait to see what He'll do this time!] Cleo is the first person to actually sense that I may need financial help. I am touched by her offer to help financially, because she must have exhausted her own funds paying for her medical treatment – surgery, ICU stay, chemotherapy, radiotherapy and immunotherapy! Here again, I am reminded of how the Holy Spirit works in our hearts to show divine love to members of His body, when they are in need.
May 5, 2026
24th September 2023 24th September 2023, Sunday My boss, Dr A, flew down from KL to meet me tonight. We discussed if I should stay on in the company, given the negative publicity. At the end, he said I should be prepared to step down from the Board and my positions as Group COO and Country Head of Singapore. I may be retained as a Consultant, but he will confirm with the shareholders. I informed my family that night – I thank God that He has provided for their education, especially blessing JYL with a scholarship, so that she can fulfil her dreams of studying aerospace engineering in Bristol. God has everything planned. Yes, I am still worried about my finances and being able to provide for my family. I despair (slightly) at the thought of not having a job and waking up each morning with nothing to look forward to. Yet, God’s truth is that He is there with us, wherever we go, whether at the heights of our joy or the depths of our sorrow. I thank God for His Word, which is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.
May 5, 2026
22nd September, 2023 Today, a lot of people made me cry. They sent me messages expressing their unconditional love and support for me. Many reminded me not to go through my trial alone, but to share my burden with my family and friends. In the gospel of Matthew, chapter 25, Jesus speaks of the Judgment Day of the Gentiles, when He separates the sheep from the goats. I believe this passage reveals that our Lord will judge us by our hearts. The sheep are those who are like Him in spirit, who are ‘after His own heart’. Indeed He considers righteous those who feed the hungry and give drink to those who thirst; who care for the lost and clothe the naked; who tend to the sick and reach out to those in trouble. Truly, I have met the sheep. Li Lian, my Finance Manager in QH (I joined them after leaving NSG), saw me troubled and offered to buy me lunch. When I smiled weakly and declined her offer, she got me fruits (strawberries, blackberries and grapes) to eat anyway. Likewise, in the evening, Adrian invited me to have dinner with him and his son, Matthew. Mervin cooked his specialty, fried hokkien mee, and delivered it to my home. How blessed I am!
May 5, 2026
19th September 2023, Tuesday It’s the calm before the storm. I do not feel any dread. Maybe I should. I shared with my family what was about to take place. 1.50pm JH (to Bashful Pears): Hi ladies, just a brief word to say I'm being charged in court tomorrow for share price rigging. I see it as a blessing and opportunity to trust in God, who is my defence. Don't let this affect your studies! Fighting! 2.00pm JYX (from Glasgow): 🙏 will pray about it! Hope all goes well 7.03pm JYM (from London): Praying for you! Proverbs 3:5-6 🫶🫶 20th September 2023, Wednesday 12.33am LW (from Bristol, where she was with JYL): Thank you Lord for your presence with JH. It is your faith that we look at, not ours and it is your Mighty Hands that will carry JH in and through this trial. Thank you that Christ in him makes him a mighty warrior and the peace of Christ rules his heart, reigns in him and guards his heart and his mind. Protect him from the evil one and help him to cast fear, doubt and not be shaken in the midst. Help him to worship and give thanks in the midst. Deliver JH from all temptations as he puts on the armour of God and allow you to fight the battles for him. All Glory be unto you. In Jesus’ name I pray. Today, my life changed in a way I would never have imagined. I was charged with 39 counts in the district court for being part of a conspiracy to ‘create a misleading appearance in the share price of NSG, and for pushing the price up’.
May 3, 2026