I pray today is a good day Psalm 118:24

By Kadir · May 27, 2026

What touches you in the morning when you wake up ? Reading emails, messages on the phone or reading the news ? For a very long time since my working life, the single most important pursuit is for financial independence and securing the future for retirement. Health and time for family, prayer took a second seat. Until the day my father passed away. How do you lose a Father so dear it devastates and upend my entire life for a long time. My father has been the pillar of my well being while I pursue worldly achievements. He held onto the same teaching principles of being self sufficient, independence, pursue of greater knowledge and make one self capable. Since five years old, I was sent to Singapore to study, away from my parents in Indonesia. My student life in Singapore molds me to my father’s teachings. I graduated and finished higher education. Now as I am hitting 60, my two children have their own careers, my wife is still as happy as she was the day I courted her. My attachment to my father’s teachings are a distant memory since he passed on some 10 years ago. Reflecting my life that has went so fast from the day I arrived in Singapore like a blink of an eye. Question, what is this life all about ? I will expire one day. I am no nearer to self actualisation than the days God gave me the abundances. I am still trying to overcome detachments from everything that I have, aspire and those that holds me down. (Matthew 6:19) Then I’ve no fear, peace and got a reprieve while praying. Then the next morning I woke up, the attachment, the pursuit and everything else all came back again and the mind to detach cycle repeats again. Everyday I’m looking for his words to stay in his words. I sometimes dread the morning when I wake up. I pray every morning. News, emails and phone messages took a second seat. I’m still in the valley, I haven’t got out yet, I don’t know how long is this path. If any it would just be a journal of journey, no conclusion yet. I don’t pray to expect anything from God but pray for a detachment and whatever God leads the path for the choice I made I’m ready. God had given me abundance (Ephesians 3:20) for so many times for so long, unexpected and without asking, as I am still lost now. Sometimes I feel like I’m walking in the valley of death (Psalm 23:4) but I’ve no fear. Perhaps God meant me to taste something, reflect and appreciate something, share something before I expire. I do not know, but only the path to God is clear. I pray today is a good day. Psalm 118:24

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Jin Hian

May 28, 2026

Brother Kadir, Thank you for being vulnerable and honest before God. We often live our lives from day to day, without contemplating His purpose for us, but your sharing of your daily struggles, knowing these are temporary in the context of your eternal life, is evidence that God is working deeply within you. I believe you honour your father by being a loving son to your mum and a responsible dad to your children. But now God is bringing you into a new season — not the season of building outwardly, but the season of building inwardly, where your focus (and God's focus) is on your heart and your relationship with your heavenly father. You are not lost because you are questioning life. You are awakening to eternity. King Solomon himself went through this same valley. He had wisdom, wealth, achievements, projects and abundance beyond measure, yet he finally wrote: “Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.” — Ecclesiastes 1:2 King Solomon knew that earthly things could not satisfy the soul forever. God allows us to taste both abundance and emptiness so that eventually we learn that only He Himself satisfies. You mentioned the cycle of praying, surrendering, finding peace, then waking up the next morning and feeling attachment and pursuit (of earthly goals) return again. That is the daily crucifixion of the flesh Jesus spoke about: “Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.” — Luke 9:23 Detachment from this world is not achieved once and forever in a single prayer. We are sanctified (made more and more like Christ) over many years. God does not remove the valley when the valley is transforming our heart! We find comfort in the knowledge that God walks with us inside the valley. As He has taught me, I believe this is what God is teaching you now: that peace is no longer found in control, achievement, financial certainty or even understanding the future — but simply in abiding in Him. You said something very important: “I don’t pray to expect anything from God.” That is a precious place spiritually. Job eventually reached that place. Habakkuk reached that place too: “Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines... Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.” — Habakkuk 3:17-18 How wonderful it is when we discover the faith that says, "God is sufficient for me." Brother, do not condemn yourself because you are still in the valley after ten years. Abraham waited. Joseph suffered. Moses wandered. David hid in caves. Paul carried afflictions. Even Jesus Himself walked through sorrow. God is not rushing your journey. You say you fear waking up in the morning sometimes. Yet every morning you still pray first before touching the news, messages or emails. Wow! This means your heart is in tune with God. Ten years ago perhaps the world touched your mind first. Now God does. Slowly, almost invisibly, God is reordering your loves. And perhaps your journal has no conclusion because God never intended it to be a story about arriving. Rather, it is a testimony about walking faithfully while still incomplete and imperfect. Indeed, Paul said near the end of his life: “Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on.” — Philippians 3:12 So continue, brother. Continue praying in the mornings. Continue reading His Word. Continue surrendering daily. Continue walking even when clarity has not yet come. One day, all the striving of this world will truly fall away. The things that once seemed urgent will become small. And what will remain is faith, love, obedience and the quiet work God accomplished in your soul through the long valley. I know you will one day see that the valley itself was where you learned to experience God most deeply. “This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.” — Psalm 118:24 May the Lord give you strength for today, peace for your heart, clarity for your spirit and the quiet assurance that He has never left your side for even one step of this journey. In Jesus' name, Amen. Thank you again for sharing!

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